Dec 30, 2006

I Am My Favorite Superhero! Go Geeks!

Your results:
You are Spider-Man
























Spider-Man
70%
Superman
65%
Green Lantern
55%
Supergirl
53%
Iron Man
50%
Wonder Woman
48%
Robin
40%
Catwoman
35%
The Flash
35%
Hulk
30%
Batman
30%
You are intelligent, witty,
a bit geeky and have great
power and responsibility.


Click here to take the "Which Superhero are you?" quiz...

Dec 8, 2006

Death and Biscuits

The Pillsbury Doughboy died yesterday of a yeast infection and trauma complications from repeated pokes in the belly. He was 71.

Doughboy was buried in a lightly greased coffin. Dozens of celebrities turned out to pay their respects, including Mrs. Butterworth, Hungry Jack, the California Raisins, Betty Crocker, the Hostess Twinkies, and Captain Crunch. The grave site was piled high with flours.

Aunt Jemima delivered the eulogy and lovingly described Doughboy as a man who never knew how much he was kneaded. Doughboy rose quickly in show business, but his later life was filled with turnovers. He was not considered a very smart cookie, wasting much of his dough on half-baked schemes. Despite being a little flaky at times he still was a crusty old man and was considered a positive roll model for millions.

Doughboy is survived by his wife Play Dough, two children, John Dough and Jane Dough, plus they had one in the oven. He is also survived by his elderly father, Pop Tart.

The funeral was held at 3:50 for about 20 minutes.

a snapshot of doughboy

[thanks, robby!]

Dec 2, 2006

The Aliens Have Firefox, 2


This might just be one of the coolest things I've EVER seen...screenshot to left.

Note the machines/vehicles near the bottom...They spell out "FX2".

[via Google Sightseeing Blog]

Nov 17, 2006

Help us make the front page!

Digg the VillageFilm!

Please! Click on the link above, and "Digg" the story that appears. If you don't have a Digg account, it will only take moments to setup and you never have to come back.

[Digg is a news outlet where the stories are submitted entirely by users without any sort of editorial input. If we make the front page it could be a HUGE boon to our project. ]

Please help us now!

Chat with Filmmakers

The VillageFilm just added chat capability to its ever-evolving website. Head on over to the Village to see the new chat link.

There is a chat schedule posted on the Google Calendar, as well. Chat capability is available 24/7, but the schedule should give you an idea of when at least someone else will be there. Chats are so much more fun when its more than just you!

Tuesdays at 10pm EST [9pm for us Central folks] is the best time to find us. That's when the story team and I will be there hashing out different ideas. We would love to hear your input directly! Of course you can always simply make a comment from the Village for everyone to see.

Nov 13, 2006

Testing the Flock

New browser, just testing it out.

Blogged with Flock

Nov 12, 2006

VillageFilm adds Ads, chooses Chat

The website is now ad-supported (through Google's AdSense, what else?). Now when you invite people to visit the site, you're supporting the project with people and money. Sweet!

After some discussion and wrangling, we decided to go ahead and switch to a javascript chat module. Soon, we'll be removing the old chat functionality in the Village's right frame, and instead we'll add a link to a chat module in the navigation bar on the left. The chat module is provided by Gabbly.com , and it's freeking awesome.

Chat will become an important feature of our experience in the near future. The asynchronous communication we've set up is slick (considering that it costs us nothing), but I think it's important to exchange ideas in real time. Hopefully this will help drive traffic to the site as well. Also, it could help increase participation--most people seem to think helping the VillageFilm project will take hours and hours, time they cannot spare. The chat sessions will hopefully show that you can help with the project even if you only have a few minutes to spare.

ACTIONS
  • Visit the website, check out our new ad-supported goodness.
  • Make a comment about something in story 1, scene 1 [click on script in the Village]. I'll leave the specifics up to you.

Nov 2, 2006

Editors to begin work on RS&P

It's about time.

The Story Team decided on a storyline, and now it's time for the real work to begin.

We will use Google Docs & Spreadsheets to write the script. We're starting by developing a solid outline of all three story lines, which will make the script writing process that much easier.

For those of you not invited to the actual edit board (you'll receive an email if you are), feel free to make comments/suggestions/criticisms/etc. from within the Village. I've built two forms, one that allows you to comment on the script, and one that comments on the outline.

Below are some key definitions and links.

VillageFilm: the accurate way of spelling/referring to this project, as a whole.
Village Filmmakers : Anyone involved in the process of creating this film.
Editors: Key people with significant power over a specific step they have expertise in.
The Village: the frameset that allows easy access to all the tools we will use in this project.
RSP: Religion, Sex, and Politics (the working title of the film we are making).

Read/comment on the outline
Read/comment on the script
Read other people's comments on either one

[ps: the website colors are (maybe?) decided. I went with a Google color scheme, since that seemed to make sense. Notice the similarity to Gmail, Groups, Docs, and several other Google products. Let me know what you think.]

Nov 1, 2006

Storyline Chosen!

NEWS

• the Story Team finally decided on a story idea to work on. again,
just for reference, i am not on the story team, and did not influence
their decision. they've decided that "Religion, Sex, and Politics" is
the concept that seems to have the most potential for our purposes.

• so it's time to start writing! i'll send out instructions and links
tomorrow. if you want to read up on the storyline as it stands, check
out the forum.

ACTIONS

• read the synopsis for Religion, Sex and Politics here.

Oct 30, 2006

Website Updated

NEWS
• made some serious behind-the-scenes updates to the website. anyone may now leave a comment about the script, while reading it. they don't even have to have a Google account. all the comments will be hosted on another blogger blog.

• in that vein, the Story team has assured me that the script WILL be chosen by Wednesday night at 9pm. so i'm holding them to that. then we can actually start writing this beast.

• i figured out a simple way to help us browse the comments on the comment blog, if it happens that a lot of people start participating. basically, you find a comment about a scene you're interested in, then click a link at the bottom of the comment, and voila! all the other comments on the subject appear before your very eyes.

ACTION

• nothing. sleep in. if you want, you can check out the updated Village Frames site. try clicking the "Script" link, and see what happens.

villagefilm will double post here

well, the Village Film project is coming along, and I want all of you to know just how well it's going.

which is why, from now on, you'll see the contents of the villagefilm blog doubled here. that way, you'll always know "what's up".

feel free to join the party, if you like.

start at villagefilm.googlepages.com

Sep 18, 2006

let me say i'm sorry

you see, it's hard for me to admit it, but...

i've found someone else.

not that you weren't great. you were. you are, even. i'm just...changing. and completely enraptured.

sorry if i don't communicate enough. i'm trying, but she's taking over my life. and i'm loving every minute.

but be not dismayed. she is open to others, too. you could join us, if you like. i know that might be a little weird, and not what you're used to, but...i'm telling you, it's worth it. or at least, it will be.

[where has nic gone? he's here, making a movie. come help him!]

Sep 13, 2006

a film project for YOU

this is it, folks. my first official announcement of the latest crazy concept i dreamed up. and now more than ever, this one's about you.

ever notice how the internet these days is all about user input? users tag other user's photos on flickr, internet applications stay in beta for about a million years while collecting "user feedback", there's even a whole internet encyclopedia created by users keyboards!

well, i'm gonna take this concept of a "user-centric" internet and see what happens when you try to make a film with it.

it's called "villagefilm." because, as the former pseudo(actual?)president of the United States would say, "it takes a village..."

The Concept
its completely collaborative, from page one. everybody has input on the storyline we use, the editing process of the script, the storyboarding, the post-production process--pretty much everything except the actual shooting process (which you can actually be involved in if you're willing to relocate to Jackson, TN for a while).

The Process
we will use a number of collaborative internet applications that allow many people to at least give their input on any given step. these applications are, intentionally, all provided by Google. Google, however, has not expressed any endorsement of this project and probably never will. the system simply allows us to use a wide variety of apps without a lot of sign-up processes. the applications we will use include:

Gmail - for communications.
Writely - for the script.
Google Spreadsheets - prop lists, equipment needs, etc.
Google Calendar - scheduling, duh.
Google Talk - live communications .
Google Notebook - for saving a collective of good ideas.
Picasa - to use the web albums.
Picasa Web Albums - storyboarding and production shots/poster concepts.
Google Video - for dailies and trailers.
Blogger - promotional material, production blog, t-shirt sales, etc.
Sketch Up - further storyboarding possibilities.
Google Pages - promotional purposes/the full website.
Froogle - props, equipment purchases.
Google Maps - directions/locations.

The Current Situation
currently, those involved on the project are deciding on a logo for the villagefilm. you can give us your input here. soon, however, we'll start debating story ideas and fleshing out a script. i wanted to give you the heads up now because, well, that's the point. everyone can be involved from page one. [you'll have to sign in to your Google account to leave a comment. if you don't have one, get one]

if you want further updates about this project, keep checking here or send us an email at

villagefilm [at} gmail *dot* com <--protecting me from spam bots. type it in like a normal email address and you should be fine.

looking forward to working with you!

invite a friend!


Sep 12, 2006

a spam blogger? me?!?

apparently, blogger's webbots have tagged my "pfostpfilms" blog as a spam blog, aka a 'splog'.

which basically means i have to punch in a word verification every time i post.

think of it. me. your friend nic. an official spam blogger. and not just an ordinary splogger, no. one that has garnered the attention and, yes, punishment of our friend Google. which is ironic, seeing how much i support and depend on Google practically every day.

life is funny sometimes.

Sep 11, 2006

i broke xanga! whoops!

so i accidentally broke xanga for some people. didn't realize i had the power.

so this is my attempt to fix the problem.

good luck to me.

Sep 10, 2006

finally, finally, finally

after several hours of tinkering, i finally got xanga to accept new posts from blogger.


which means the following:


new posts from me will show up simultaneously at blogger, xanga, and facebook. (FINALLY!!!!)
comments will be disabled on xanga (you can comment on blogger WITHOUT signing up for it).
i'll probably rarely update my layout on xanga (but i do that already, and noone cares...so...).


ALSO--


i'm going to post about a film project that you can have a part in pretty soon. keep your eyes peeled.

Sep 9, 2006

also...

i am either a hardcore man-feminist....

or i am at least 60% female.

gross.

curse of normality

i am male.

i am white.

how can i best diversify a classroom, workplace, or other system that will benefit from diversification?



by leaving it.

Sep 4, 2006

pixel art to the EXTREME!

http://www.lovepixel.idv.tw/

think of it. starting with a large blank canvas in Microsoft Paint.

then, pixel by pixel, you start to create a building. which turns into a city. which becomes a freeking LANDSCAPE.

this, my dear friends, is the fate of whatever guy did the picture at the link.

Sep 3, 2006

the internet is ****

funny. i spent all day online and end up

here.

and i think its the most enlightening (not to mention brief) thing i've read all day.

i think i'll go read a book now.

[and--sorry for the language. it's still good.]

Sep 1, 2006

google game

how weird is this?

google has this weird little game thats oh-so-addictive. they pair you with a random person who is also at their site, and the two of you have ninety seconds to label as many images as you can.

for every image you both label with the same word, you get 100 points and move on to the next image.

the images seem to be somewhat randomly pulled from the "google image search ", so don't be surprised if you see a picture of yourself up there.

the idea behind the game, actually, is that it will help google better identify pictures when you're searching for them.

but, really, the game is just stinking fun. at least, fun enough for me to get into the top 100 all-time players ever. go me.

play it here. you don't have to have a google account to play.

Aug 25, 2006

Wedding Photos!

find them here.

you know you want to.

you've been waiting for this moment for a long, long time.

now's your chance: making fun of nic galore!!

Aug 22, 2006

how you likin' the married life?

lotsa time for thinking.

i think a big part of the reason i was opposed to marriage for so long is because it was different. not being married, in my mind, kept me safer from the rut of normality. if i were to be thoroughly psychoanalyzed, my guess is one of my main fears would be to "fit in too much", to disappear into the vast sea of plain faces and redundant stories.

but i think marriage has actually had the opposite effect. noone in the world will have the story quite like mine, noone will love quite like i do, and certainly noone will enjoy the benefits of marrying such a quietly beautiful person like i do.

dustin martin said something profound to me yesterday: "man, do you even know how lucky you are [that amy isn't high-maintenance]? i mean, i don't even have a girlfriend and i have more drama than i can handle."

which is true. it is good, better than even i had hoped.

so take that, old self. marriage doesn't make you blend in. it makes everything else stand out in a way you'd never seen it before.

now i wonder what 50th anniversaries do to you?

Aug 4, 2006

just this side of single

weddings are just a little stressful.

two at once is a lot stressful.

so i'm videotaping joshandkim's wedding later...today, actually. and i'm being videotaped in my own a mere 28 hours later. phew.

just a few things i've learned so far from the whole relationship/dating/marriage thing:

if you want to please yourself, try pleasing the other person.
the only surefire way to get a woman to like you is to be disinterested in her. not act, be.
tall men should marry tall women. that is, if they don't want the tall women getting mad.
women actually like wearing heels, except when they don't.
flowers are only a great idea when they are unexpected. otherwise, they are merely a good idea.
the wedding is the woman's.
genuine, loving compromise may be the most beautiful action humans are capable of.
sex is the definition of biblical marriage. adam and eve married when he "knew" her. so don't go around marrying people.
don't try to figure out if she'll say yes before asking her. that is wussy.
a low-maintenance woman is a gift from God.
do not take advantage of a low-maintenance woman. she is a gift from God, and deserves better.
life is too short to wait to get married. if you can honestly make a life-long committment, what the heck are you waiting for?
have high expectations of yourself, and low expectations of the other person. thus, they will always impress you.
be realistic and disregard that last piece of advice.
be yourself. don't pretend you are what you aren't.

the most important thing i can share with you is this:

if you're going to have a wedding,
have it on a roller-coaster.

this is the ride of your life.

Jul 31, 2006

wtfsc?!?

married.

in less than one week.

any final words?

[me: i'm scared exuberant, joyously spitless, toe-tappin' knees-knockin', all colors of crazy excited wiggin' out over here. its good. its real good.]

Jul 20, 2006

pulled potatoes

"i just pulled my groin muscle trying to imitate a potato"
--meg (friend of a friend of a friend)

you just never know what you'll hear around here.

Jul 6, 2006

the harbinger of death

i don't know how to pronounce the word "daschund".

i'm a reader, you see, and am much more comfortable spelling words than saying them. which can result in some embarrassing moments...if you know what i mean.

i also don't know, apparently, how to post with any kind of regularity.

story of my life: i need more discipline.

my mother, of course, agrees wholeheartedly.

maybe i should start wearing makeup and straightening my hair in the morning. that would be a habit that may effectively restore some of the abilities i once enjoyed.

hrm. one month from today, my responsibility-o-meter clicks to "code level red". which is great, but scary as you-know-where.

some of you may be pleased to know that a third pfostian CD project is currently in the works. the theme this time seems to fall somewhere between love and pessimism.

hm. there might be something to that.

and i don't care what anybody says
i promise you mean more than a dispenser of PEZ
though i have to admit the resemblance is funny
when you tilt back your head and give me some sugar, honey

--a little something i'm working on for "pezheads: the movie". should be...interesting.

May 13, 2006

...?

anybody remember why we're here?

Apr 21, 2006

no longer engaged

so i have class with four girls, all of whom are engaged. there are two of them that i have even sat with from the beginning of the semester.

except that i lied. sometime in the past two weeks, all four of them ceased to be engaged.

some sort of epidemic has seized those around me, and i'm not sure why. but its not something i could keep to myself. its kind of scary, really.

and i'm thrilled that the plague has not struck me.

------
Re: abortion post

thanks to all the people who "got it".

no, i am not an abortion supporter. and no, i'm not just trying to "get people to come to my site so i can make money." i'll have you know that the day i put that post up, i made a whopping 0.01 dollars.

and no, i know of no real scriptural support for the age of accountability. that was my point. i'm not sure i'm ready to take it this far, but i think the point is we don't know where babies go.

thus, this is my problem: if we don't know where babies go, what the heck are we doing just sitting around? abortion is a MUCH bigger issue if some of those kids even might be going to hell.

or at least, that's my take.

Apr 18, 2006

join the abortion industry

so here's a modest proposal: Christians should join the abortion industry.

this has two main benefits. first, it is the most effective way to increase the kingdom of God. second, it has positive social effects that support basic Christian values.

Kingdom Expansion
abortion is the second way into heaven, after accepting Christ. the age-of-accountability concept teaches that anyone who dies before they are mentally capable of making moral or spiritual decisions automatically goes to heaven.

this is a situation that we have failed to take advantage of fully.

now, i'm not proposing that we stop sharing the gospel. i'm merely suggesting that we guarantee the salvation of those we are capable of guaranteeing. too many Christians have lots of kids, only to see them grow up and turn their backs on the faith.

if our interest is truly the eternal salvation of as many as possible, we should be the #1 providers of abortion in the world.

Social Benefits
these are really self-explanatory. obviously, it ends the rift between Christians and the rest of the world on this issue at least, which might actually make Christianity more palatable to more people.
it promotes choice for women. choice is one of the basic priveleges of the Christian philosophy, at least for those that are unfortunate enough to have survived beyond their age-of-accountability threshold.
also, it helps keep world population at a manageable level.
one of our responsibilities as Christians on this earth is to manage its resources. less people on the planet (or at least less population growth) will result in more sustainable resources and will reduce needless waste.

Criticisms
the main argument i hear against this idea is that it refuses the opportunity for the unborn to have a choice for their salvation. i have three responses to this.

first, simple mathematics. if someone reaches their age of accountability, there is essentially a 50-50 chance of their eventual salvation. if they do not, there is a 100 percent chance of it. the math is a strong argument for such a concept, IF you truly are concerned about their eternal salvation more than their physical life.

second, i can virtually guarantee that most people in hell right now wish they didn't have a choice. they'd much rather be robots in heaven than free will agents in hell.

finally, i don't believe it is your place to argue with God about who gets a choice and who does not. if He is pleased to save based on age, that is His perogative.

let he who has ears, let him hear.

Apr 15, 2006

africa photo story

so my friend kristen nicole is selling a book of her photos of a refugee family from sudan.

these photos are amazing.

and kristen could use the support, since she's moving to europe for a couple months to take more photographs.

you have to reserve your copy of the book by THIS MONDAY. i would get cracking.

[email kristen here.]

Apr 14, 2006

the xanga curse [quite literally]

its true. xanga cussed me out.

try clicking on my "work in progress" link in my xanga profile. this is what pops up:



now why is it that this kind of thing keeps happening to me?

Apr 12, 2006

this ACTUALLY happened to me--i promise

i was looking for an avenue q song when this popped up:


[the correct song, by the way, was "the more you ruv someone"...which is a little racist, but then, aren't we all?]

[in case you didn't catch it: click the picture and look closely at the "sponsored links" on the right hand side of the screen shot.]


edit:changed song title to actual one. thanks wilhelm!

Apr 10, 2006

we are zombies

we are college kids.

we wake up to take naps. we sleep better in the day. we do not know the meaning of "caffeine high", because our bodies don't know any other way of life.

we are the trend-setters.

i can get paid $2 to click some radio buttons in an online survey, just because i'm 21 years old. i might even win $10,000 in their online drawing. because they want to know what i want.

the old guys have it all wrong.

i remember the old guys telling me i didn't know the meaning of "busy" yet, because i'm still in school. i say they can stick it in their ear. we're busier than 90% of the adults i've ever met--we may not be as tied down as they are, or have such a strict schedule, but we are by far the busier ones.

we are the music-makers. we are the dreamers of dreams.

leave it to willy wonka to tell us what we need to hear. we are the now, kids. whats happening out there, to our culture, its our fault. and the good stuff is, too. its time to start making some different music. time to start dreaming some dreams. i don't know what you're waiting for.

me? i'm waiting for summer.

Apr 9, 2006

So THIS is how it works...

OK, xanga kids, this is the way it will work from now on.

sorry about the extra click. hopefully it opens in a new window (just click your browser's "x" to go back to your subscriptions).

blogger peeps: glad to be one of the fold.

Apr 6, 2006

Google goes Wi-Fi

hooray for city-wide wireless.

too bad its only in san francisco so far.

perfect product?
a Google-based motorola palm-pilot blackberry iPod cell-phone coffee-maker with unlimited minutes and data transfer (and caffeine). the package would be designed by apple, the software would be compatible with windows, macintosh AND linux, and since it's a Google product, the whole package would be available for free (with no service agreement and a minimal number of contextual ads).

if i hear their installing Google wi-fi around here, i'll let you know.

Apr 5, 2006

i[crasheda]mac

my new computer:

number of days before i crashed it:
1

amount of excitement now that it works:
8,000,000,000

Apr 4, 2006

making the switch

so i figured out a simple way to make the switch to blogspot. you'll still see my posts here, hopefully. so you may not even notice. but i doubt you'll ever see the layout change.

not to mention my blogspot is at www.pfostpfilms.com.

sorry, xanga kids, the facebookization of this place is killing me.

not to mention the fact that i have a love affair with google.

don't tell amy.

Mar 23, 2006

my hero

i just to clarify that Dr. David Dockery is my hero.
 
before the soulforce thing went down, he had me and 4 other students that were planning on attending the rally into his conference room to talk about what soulforce had done at other schools and what Union's response would be.
 
Union provided them with box lunches from Heavenly Ham, paid for by private donors (no tuition dollars).
Union allowed them on campus (they didn't have to and two other schools arrested soulforce members for coming on campus).
Union provided police protection (Jacksonites can be a little "rednecky" when it comes to "gays").
Union discouraged students who just wanted to "be on tv" from attending. Dockery explicitly said that going to hear their argument was a legitimate reason for going. going to argue, however, was not.
 
whether or not the Union community will mature at all as a result of this visit remains to be seen.
 
but with a leader like Dockery in place, i think we've got a pretty good chance.

Mar 9, 2006

Union does not understand Christ's love

so now i'm quoted in the student newspaper, apparently giving my full support to what soulforce is doing on this campus.
 
i think that requires a little clarification.
 
i do not think that Union University should have to change its policies on homosexuality.
i do not think that SoulForce actually wants to change Union's mind, they just want conflict for the media to see.
i also do not think that anybody should be forced to accept anyone else's views.
i think Union has done a fine job handling this situation so far, and i hope that they will continue to be courteous.
 
at the same time, i am glad that this group is coming to our campus.
 
today alone i have had three conversations about this topic with other Union students. now, i've been at Union for several years, and this has never been an acceptable topic of conversation before.
 
this development is great.
 
lets be honest. everyone here has an agenda: soulforce wants to create a "media frenzy" (as a friend of mine put it), Union wants to avoid a mar on their reputation (by supporting the protesters too much or too little), certain Union students want all the protesters to just accept Christ (which they would say they have already done), other Union students want to "teach the protesters a lesson" (by throwing water balloons at them), and still others want to avoid the issue entirely. These are all legitimate agendas (though some are more mature and responsible than others).
 
i have an agenda as well. it is two-fold. first of all, i want to thank soulforce for bringing the issue up. thus, i will attend their rally and support them in that sense. i am not going to witness, i am not going to argue, i am not going to answer their questions, i am certainly not going to throw water balloons (good grief, Union...grow up), i am simply going to listen to what they have to say and thank them for coming.
 
the second part of my agenda is to take full advantage of this opportunity to TALK ABOUT THIS ISSUE. it has become increasingly obvious that Union students are, as a whole, not ready to deal with this issue outside of our walls. they don't understand it. they don't care about these people as people.
 
Union students, as a whole, do not understand the love of Christ.
 
that's my issue:
1- they'd rather throw water balloons.
2- or pull the 'evangelism' card.
3- or just avoid the issue all together.
 
and quite honestly, until they've learned to at least understand where people like SoulForce are coming from, until they've learned to handle these situations with the love of Christ and not the spirit of antagonism or fear, then i'd prefer they choose the third option.
 
so thank you, SoulForce, for forcing the issue.
thank you for revealing our true, idiotic, juvenile natures.
thanks for pointing out that we have a lot to learn about simple things like grace, and love, and Christ.
 
i'll be out there supporting you on march 18th at 4:30pm by miller tower. i'll pray for sunshine.
and i promise i won't bring any water balloons.

Mar 6, 2006

Approved by Student Services

Actual sign on campus:
 
 
IS COLLEGE WEIGHT GAIN
GETTING YOU DOWN???
 
for more information:
Thursday, March 9th, 2006
Outside The Library.
Drawing at 3:00.
 
FREE FOOD!

Mar 2, 2006

Buncha Homosexuals

Gays, Lesbians, Bisexuals and Transsexuals are coming to Union's campus.

March 19th at 4:30pm at the clock tower. they're coming to protest Union's policies on homosexuality. one of their number got kicked out of Union for being a lesbian.

funny thing is, we'll all be gone on spring break.

[except me. i'm coming back, and bringing the protesters cookies, chips and drinks. anybody wanna join me?]

Feb 14, 2006

random awards

here's a list of random awards that i'm handing out.
cause i know some cool peeps.
feel free to steal this idea.

most "general cool points": ben bailey
most compassionate person i know: carrie jones
most number of consecutive awkward situations: brandon emerson
most emasculating nickname: brian denker
best filmmaker: aaron hardin
the "i think i'm almost smart enough to understand her" award: kony kim
apparently quiet person that's actually really loud: andy kelly
most brutally honest: lucas villalpando
most likely to laugh at absolutely every attempt i make to be serious: amy cheek
most uncannily like me: walker pfost
most boy trouble: kristen sayres
most awkward situation with a former girlfriend: kyle raines
most likely to remember my uncle's cousin's middle name: julie palmer
most likely to argue with every award listed (including this one): julie laugherty
most likely to let me puke in his car and not care: wilhelm peters
most likely to catch hypothermia: allison wyer
most likely to out-eat me: jirah cox
most genuinely interested despite buttloads of homework: robby gordon
best all-time roomie: matthew zaruba

and finally:
most likely to have the most friends in the world ever in history: jon blair

when its time...

so i've been thinking...sorry.

its time for a change.
change takes choice.
choice takes commitment.
commitment takes sacrifice.
sacrifice takes love.
love gives life.

Feb 2, 2006

so i've been thinking again

so i've been thinking...

that i've been thinking way too much lately.

Jan 12, 2006

so i've been thinking...[part deux]

so i've been thinking about death lately.

and since i apparently have some of the smartest friends in the world (that would be you), i decided to share. again.

first of all, i know i'm gonna die. as i think we've already noted, i don't follow the social norm of my age. thus i don't think i'm invincible.

second of all, i know the truth about what happens when you die. heaven or hell. saved or not. christ or self. the choices are clear and simple.

but there are a few things that bug me.

first, the ridiculous. is it wrong to want to be cremated? i don't know about you, but i'd hate to take up space in a plot somewhere. someone asked me where people would then be able to go to remember me.
i said, "build a website."

and also: is it wrong to be secretly not really all that sad when someone you know dies? i mean, i'm speaking solely about people you know to be lovers of Christ. i'm probably the only one, but i'm just wondering.

and: can you lose your salvation? hear me out. lets say i'm saved. and i know it. but then, later, i'm not so sure. then, i die. am i doomed?

i know what some of you would say. "if you end up not being a christian, you never were one to begin with." ok. granted. but then, what if i really believed i was at first, and even for a while after that, but then began to wonder...? if this means i wasn't a christian the whole time, then how can i EVER be sure that i AM one? do you see? how can i be assured of my salvation if i'm not sure whats going to change about me tommorrow?

seems like a catch-22. you can't be sure 'til you're dead, but you don't wanna be dead 'til you're sure. conundrum.

and lets be honest here: i've lost my passion. is God ok with that? if i die in ethiopia next week, are there going to be any small print complications with the whole "book of life" thing? doesn't Christ himself say something about the lukewarm [read: dispassionate]...like "i will vomit you out of my mouth"? yes, horror of horrors, i am asking you what you think i am asking you. don't you just hate it when a guy gets honest? i know i do.

finally, on a seemingly less serious note: if i die...is it wrong to hope everybody has a party? i told allison mayhew that she's in charge of my funeral, just in case. cause i think she has the right idea. a cremation, a party, a DJ, lots of free milkshakes, and wine.
[c'mon, mom, i'm 21 now...my friends should be able to drink at my wake. or whatever.]

thanks for your thoughtful responses to part one. can't wait to see what you've got for me this time.


Jan 10, 2006

so i've been thinking.

so i've been thinking about passion lately.
 
how does one acquire passion? is passion something that can be attained? when someone is a "passionate person", does this mean that they were born that way, and thus will always be so, or does indicate that they have become something for a time about a certain subject?
 
i seem to remember being passionate at one time in my life.
 
i'm only 21. i'm the at the ripe age of idealism. at this point i should have stars in my eyes and dedication in my marrow. i should be wrapped up in some crusade of my generation to the point of forgetting social boundaries. whatever happened to the characters from the russian novels? i should simply oozing passion. i should wake up in the morning and blow my nose of excess passion and wipe the passion out of the corners of my eyes.
 
at the top of my Gmail screen right now is a "quote of the day" rss feed. the quote today is Robert Byrne. he said, "the purpose of life is a life of purpose."
 
how inane.
 
i mean, we know the truth. the purpose of life is glorifying God and enjoying him forever.
 
the first part is beyond our control. the second, well...how does one acquire that enjoyment?
 
how does one become passionate about God?

theres a big difference between knowing the truth and feeling it. i guess i'm wondering how you turn the first into the second.
 
any ideas?